tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6485234340783571335.post8807016949584779535..comments2023-09-18T13:01:59.416+01:00Comments on It's all about my Lucy: Should I feel sorry?Avril Clarkhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16563764797328640219noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6485234340783571335.post-5051146195440745352016-12-05T18:04:20.459+00:002016-12-05T18:04:20.459+00:00Before, I never gave it thought, I was in hiding n...Before, I never gave it thought, I was in hiding not even thinking of being me. To think about it, that was a quick way into depression or worse to believe that there was no way out and that I would do something foolish, something you can't take back once done. So now that I am slowly coming out, bit by bit, the thought crosses my mind daily. What will _____ think of what I am, when they find out? <br />I look back on my own life, cringing at my treatment of others, trans or even just effeminate, calling transgender people "it". The worst people, the worst of those that treat people this way are those of us who are in denial about who we are. I was one of the worst offenders against transgendered people. I worry about what others will say, because I have said so much worse about trans, about me. Self-hating because I didn't see a way out of my mask. Now, the question is always on my mind, what will they think when they find out? Which is infinitely better than, what would they think if they ever found out? I find that I can bear the first question, I could not bear the latter in hiding.Beth Lockehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02413523125628243429noreply@blogger.com